Dad, Where do I start...... I cant believe you have gone and Im never going to be able to tell you how much you meant to me, I wish I had told you more when you were here, cos believe me you meant the world to me. You were there for me when things in my life were a mess and you gave me advise when I needed it. I just wanted to say THANK YOU for the memories which help me at this time when Im feelin sad - The days we went skip hunting and doing the decorating jobs I could go on .... When I met Sarah you said I should never let her ever go from day 1 you welcomed her, Jordan, Vicky and Chelsea into our family. I was the proudest man on my wedding day not only marrying Sarah but to have You, Mum and Claire there. Remember the Jamacian rum and the night we stayed up and I had to help you to bed how we laughted. People say this will get easier, at this time I cant see that being true if so when will it...... I miss you and it hurts to think Im never going to see you again in this life!!!! But I know you dont want me to do the stupid things I used to do when my head is messed up and I promise you I WON'T... I will always have you in my heart and never ever forget you.. THANK YOU FOR BEING THE BEST DAD ... Love your Son Carl xx